This morning, I woke up feeling low Spiritually. Last night we were invited to a neighbor's house. They were celebrating their daughter's 18 birthday. Among the guest was a beautiful little girl. Only two years old, and she has already gone through so much. She had cancer in her liver. Thanks to God, the cancer was removed by surgery and she is doing very good. She still receives chemo therapy. And it recuperating from all she went through.
I was so moved by this little girl, who looks happy and with so much energy yet, a few months ago she was battling this terrible disease that was threatening her life.
I began thinking about my own daughter. In a few months she will be in a hospital, undergoing surgery for her spine correction. Suddenly fear overtook me. Lord, please heal my daughter. I will do anything to spare my daughter the pain, Lord.
How many mothers have had the same feelings. The terror of suddenly loosing your child to a disease. To see your child in pain and suffering. Mary went through this too. As she watched her son, torn by the beatens He received, nailed to the cross and then to see Him die.
I pleaded to God to take this fears away. I went to sleep, but like usual I kep tossing and turning. Praying all night for God to help me.
This morning, I felt I need to hear something that will uplift my Spirit. I took out my collection of sermon CDS from when I attended Living Hope Christian Center.
I browsed through the CDS, reading the title of the messages. I organized them by date, and decided to start with the first CDs from 2004. It was a message from one of the pastors. He was speaking about how we are called to be laborers for God. How to be a testimony and reach out to the unsaved. Fifteen minutes into the message, there was problems with the audio. I thought it might be the earphones. Then I checked the batteries, I thought maybe God wants me to listen to another CD.
I took out another CD, labeled, " Healing in His Wings" by Pastor Benjamin. Pastor Benjamin is the founder of Living Hope. Awesome preacher.
On the CD, I had written in pen,
this is the day my brother visited the church.
Pastor Benjamin, began with this scriptures: Ruth 3:7-11, Malachi 4:1,2, and Mathew 9:18-22.
Catholic readers, the scripture for Malachi, is chapter 3:19,20.
There are lots of differences in Bible versions, I have the New American Bible, but I also have NIV versions and the Message version. Let me write to you the NIV version of Malachi 3:19,20 ( Malachi 4:1,2)
"Surely the day is coming; it will burn like a furnace. All the arrogant and every evildoers will be stubble, and that day that is coming will set them on fire," says the Lord Almighty. " Not a root or a branch will be left to them. But for you who revere my name, the sun of righteousness will rise with healing in its wings. And you will go out and leap like calves released from the stall..."
Pastor Benjamin read all three scriptures than began explaining each scripture separately.
This message became more interesting to me because of the story of Ruth. Let me give you a short story of my own before I continue with the message. My daughter's name is Marah. As you know Ruth's mother-in-law' name was Noemi, but after she lost her husband and two sons, she was depressed and changed her name to Mara which means bitter in Hebrew. There are some bible versions that spell the name Mara with and H at the end.
This is not at all the reason, I named my daughter Marah. My mother-in-law's name was Maravilla, its meaning is wonderful. My husband wanted us to name our daughter like his mother. I thought it was to long, and perhaps she will not like it when she get older. " How about if we name her Marah, since that is what everyone used to call your mom," I told my husband. I added the H, to make it unique.
I did not know the meaning until years later a friend told me that in her country Mara means "sadness".
Then while reading my bible one day, I stumbled upon a scripture in Exodus15:23, that speaks of a place called Marah because of it bitter waters. I will never had chosen this name for my daughter if I had known this, however, God has a purpose for eveything. I believe there is lesson to be learned here. I am not sure what it is, but I pray to God to show me and guide me through the process.
When Pastor Benjamin preached this message, I still did not know what was ahead of us. This message is dated 8/8/04, we did not get a diagnosis for my daughter until February of 2005.
It is now five years later and I am at the brink of despair. My daughter will be having surgery in a few months. I am scared! I am crying out to God to help me. Heal my daughter Lord! Hear my prayers!
You promised her healing. What went wrong? Where did I go wrong?
I continued listening to Pastor Benjamin's message.
Ruth asked Boaz to spread the corner of her cloak over her. Boaz was a relative of Noemi. He will provide protection for Ruth.
In Mathew 9:18-22, the woman with the issue of blood, had FAITH, that if she only touched the hem of Jesus garment she would be healed.
The message connecting this three scriptures is that God heals. We need to pray, and be persistent in prayer. Not give up. God has promised to hear our prayer. He healed many through Jesus. And he still continues to heal many. We need to have Faith.
Over the years, I heard many messages like this one. They stirr up Faith in me. Then somehow, I loose hope. I get discouraged. Five years, I have been praying and asking for a miracle. Not just for my daughter. For many other people who are suffering with illness. My brother, my sisters, my Mother, my cousin's wife who has cancer.
And there is also prayers for household salvation. Yes, those lost souls who do not know Jesus. I pray for the violence in Mexico and all over the world to end. I pray for the youth in our city. I pray for the unborn child who is not given a chance to be born.
And something in me awakens. God has a purpose for me. He is calling me to be a laborer for his kingdom. I must reach out to the depressed, the lonely, the one who has lost all hope.
Oh Lord, I know you have an answer for my prayers. I will not loose HOPE. I believe that you will do amazing things. I know that nothing is impossible for you.
You are a merciful, loving God, and you will not give me more than I can endure.
I trust in YOU! There is Healing in Your Wings.